It has been quite some time since I have blogged so here goes my commitment of blogging at least once a week...I hear it is good for the soul. It has been a tough year to say the least and for many reasons....so much has been taken away and yet so much has been gained. My dear brother died last year....my friend, my confidante, the last of my 'immediate' family. Family is so very important yet when you lose all of your family you learn, and it is apparent, that your friends become like your family and I have been blessed with so many wonderful and understanding friends. Which brings me to Mother's Day.....a mixed emotion day for sure..... I can't help but think on this special day, what if....
What if I had my three children in my life, what if I had sought out some counseling before I made my decision, what if I had understood the values that were given me and lived a better life. What if I had understood, really understood, what I had done o many years go. So many things I could have done differently but I didn't. So tomorrow when I look around at all of the mothers I will feel that pain even moreso than I do on a daily basis. I regret my decision period.
However, like all of us, God has a plan. He allows us to take our wrongs and to do good with them and to not just tell another sad story but to bring Him to others. Let others know of aphis forgiving power.
What if...is something I think every day too. And yes, on Mother's Day even more so. I regret my decision also. Period. And I forget sometimes that there are others I know that not only understand, but share this pain that is just so, so personal. Happy Mother's Day to you Mary. Thank you for this post, and I'm glad I found it. I love you.
ReplyDeletethank you for this. mother's day is a struggle for many of us who made that "choice". snuggling one baby in my arms & knowing there should be more here with me. Praying for you.
ReplyDeleteMary, You will know your children one day. Hold on to that realization. Just as I wait to meet our miscarried babies, knowing they will be there...now I just have to make it to heaven. You are in my prayers and I will take you with me to Mass. Bob and I are going to St. Albertus in Detroit for a special Mother's Day Mass and May Crowning. May Our Mother Mary enfold you in her arms of care. Love you!
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