Mother's Day is always a hard day for me and many other women, I know, who have aborted their babies. It is a time of regret, remorse, sorrow and a day you cannot help but look back on and wonder, what if....
I know I have been a mother in so many other ways, and to so many other people and children, and in so many different situations but it never takes the ache away or the regret and, always, you think, what if....
What if I had given birth to my three children, Colleen, Maura and John, and how different my life would be right now....perhaps I would have been able to see them grow up, perhaps I would see them graduate from High School and College, and then to go onto to be parents themselves, because, had I known, I would have given birth and I would have taught them all about life, and how precious life is, and that only God creates that life within you, and you never have the right to eradicate what God has so beautifully created. Perhaps had I given birth to my three children, I would not stare and wonder at other families, at holiday times, what it would be like, if I had my very own children, and my very own 'nucleus' family. I would not dislike holidays as much as I do at times.....it always leaves me with that wretching pain in my stomach and a void in my heart that is indescibable. And I know many of my sisters in Christ share these same feelings, especially, on Mother's Day. However, I do know that life and our mothers are something we always need to celebrate as 'motherless daughters' because, thank God, our mothers chose life.
I pray to my three children and I ask their forgiveness and I continue to do God's work for Him and all that He did for me but also, I do it, for His Mother, our Blessed Mother, and because of her fiat we had her Son, as our Lord and Savior.
As I have said to many women I have spoke to that I don't think you ever really get over the abortions but you know that God has forgiven you and you know you are called to do what is right and to help others know the way, His Way....
Happy Mother's Day.
