Well, here I am almost 6 weeks after my first blog in quite awhile....so here we go to get back on track.  I have so much to say and, it seems, so little time to say it in.

Today is the official anniversary of the legalization of abortion in the U.S.

As if there hasn't been enough said already by many and sundry people but I have to write something down about this Women's March on Washington.  I am not sure what the goal was for the march other than awareness of women feeling as if they had been slighted, either financially, sexually, physically, etc.  There seemed to be a lot of confusion as to the reasons and motives for marching but then again it gave many a reason to unite in an otherwise divided facade of a nation.  Thank God we live in a nation whereby this is still permitted legally.  If you think your rights are being violated talk to some women from other countries.  I viewed a documentary film last weekend and I learned that in Amsterdam women are allowed to showcase their sexual wares in a store window atmosphere and those women many times are beaten and abused and most of the society just looks the other way.  Now there's something to march about.  Or how about our pornography industry in the U.S. where women, sometimes minors, are abused in an industry larger than the entertainment and movie industry combined.  Another marching idea. A deplorable exploitation of women.

I watched and viewed some of the clips from the Women's March on Washington and what struck me were the men that were shouting....'her body, her choice'.  I thought how sad...the reason they were shouting it is so they have no responsibility for being part of the problem.  It takes two to make a child.   It is your choice to do to your body what you wish but not to another.  That's when the choice gets muddled.

Looking forward to the March for Life and all the media coverage it will get for the hundreds of thousands of people who will march on Washington DC on January 27th for the sake of the unborn...and they have been for 44 years.

As you can see it has been a very long time since I have blogged.  I'm not a professional blogger like some of my blogging friends but I think some things I may say might help others which is why I am back at it.  I hope to blog at least a few times weekly unless something strikes me as important and I will blog as the mood hits. I am a pro life blogger. I do all I do for Him and for no other reason.  I have spent a great deal of time in my life trying to please others and to be a people pleaser...that part of me is over.  I am about pleasing Him and doing His work, not mine.

I spoke to a woman last night who had multiple abortions and I mean multiple in double digits....before I called her I asked myself...what do you say to someone who has gone through life with this burden, with this weight on her shoulders?  We ended up talking for a half hour and she knows she is on this earth for a reason ..praise God is all I can say.

Mother's Day 2014

Each year Mother's Day comes around and, yes, I think of my mother, but I also think of the void in my life, as well as many other of my post-abortive sisters.  It is a hard day.  I remember last year at church the priest asked all mothers to stand up..I hesitated and then I ached.  Yes, I am a mother and will meet my chidlren someday but I am not a biological mother.  I look around at all the families and feel the ache more, the pain of regret, the stark realization that Mother's Day could be different had I chosen another path.  Did I realize what I had done at the time?  Did I understand the hurt I would feel for many years afterwards?  

So,  as I approach another Mother's Day I remember my own Mother,  who chose life for me,  and I pray to my three children and daily ask for their forgiveness and, with the hope, we will meet someday and they will welcome me.

I love you, Moira, Colleen and John.

Holy Week...an amazing story

During Holy Week I was asked to pray for a young woman who was contemplating an abortion...I did and I am asked to pray for that reason many times.  I pray and give it all to Him. This time it was different and I don't know why.  Only God does.   On Holy Thursday at Mass I had a powerful one on one with Jesus...I begged Him on the cross to intercede for this young woman and to save her child.  I dramatically asked Jesus to strike her down and make her see the value of her baby although I knew she had had multiple abortions in her past and was a previous drug user.  I knew I didn't have that relationship with Jesus when I was pregnant and never asked for His help.  Then on Goo d Friday I had another powerful and very pointed conversation with our Lord about this woman and begged Him again, choking back tears, as I begged.  Holy Saturday morning I was driving to visit with Meghan, a powerful prayer warrior, and got a text stating her abortion had been cancelled and they didn't know why.  Thank you Meghan.  Hmmmm is all I thought.  Please stick with this story...it only gets better.

A week went by and I hadn't heard anything further and inquired.  Well, God does have a sense of humor at times.  This woman was picked up on a year old charge of stealing a car and put in jail for 6-7 weeks.  I think God wanted to make sure she would not have access to an abortion.   And then I was asked if I would visit her in jail and without hesitation I said 'yes'.  As I was driving out there (a mere 50 miles away) I sort of chuckled and thought what am I doing....well I was doing what He asked me to do...to be his hands and feet with this young woman.   I wasn't sure what I was going to say to her so I left it all up to the Holy Spirit.  I didn't even know what she looked like.  I met my friend Beth there who runs a Catholic home for unwed mothers which is how I learned of this woman.  When she came out behind the glass I felt a connection immediately...I put my hand on the glass and asked that she put her hand up there also...I said to her that was a hug from me to her..I assured her I had walked her path and we would be there to support her.  I kept talking of her baby and Beth said to her she thought this baby would change her life and I agreed.  The half hour visit flew by.  I told her I would be back to see her the next week since Beth couldn't make it.  I went out alone the next week and wondered how we would fill the hour up.  As soon as she came out for the visit we hugged by putting our hands on the glass...amazing the power of suggestion.  Again, the time flew by...I assured her we would be there to support her if she was willing to change...I believed she was ready.  I wrote to her in between visits giving her assuredness which then gave her hope. 

Amazingly, and only through the grace of God and the power of prayer, she is being released today with one of the judges mandates is that she be mandated to this Catholic home for pregnant women known as Mary's Mantle. 

I plan to visit her and her baby in the womb this weekend....I feel Gd has asked me to walk this path with her and to bring Jesus to her.  I am honored to do so.  More to come...

Observations and ramblings

On my way back from vacation recently I was observing a young woman in the seat ahead of me voraciously reading US magazine as well as Self magazine.  This young woman was reading it with such intensity that I wondered if she obtained her 'self image' from publications such as that.  After I thought about it I imagined she probably did...how very sad..really.  Most of the magazines like that reveal the human body top the extent of promiscuity and never show anything but 'perfection' which none of us can attain anyways, and really, who would want to?  I can;t help but think how much happier and intentional our society would be if we realized a few beliefs..our bodies are not ours but rather are 'on loan' to us from God.  Our bodies are not to be used for evil but rather for good and for Him and for His good.  I wish I would have known that years ago.    My life would have been so different.

We wander around this crazy world looking for peace and happiness only He can offer.  When will we realize we can never attain what He can offer.  he doesn;t deny us happiness or beauty or pleasure but NOT to the obscene extent we have taken it.  We think breast augmentations make us more beautiful and if we think that surely our husbands/boyfriends will be more content.  Men & women still leave each other for another, seeking even more happiness and pleasure and never attaining it.  We have become a society of gluttons..eating and drinking in excess and our answer to be more acceptable towards this 'perfect' look in society is weight loss surgery...a surgery being performed at record numbers and seen as a very common procedure.  We think it is OK to abort our children if the time is not right to have a child or if we are faced with an 'unplanned' pregnancy...no such thing as an unplanned pregnancy...God creates life and plans the pregnancies...not us.  Nothing is by accident with God.  We all know abortion i inherently wrong but because it is legal we can justify it.  When ill we see the truth of God?

After much pain and suffering in my own life and in my own bad decisions , through my own free will,  I now get it.  I now know there is nothing more important than doing it all for Him...as Mother Teresa said....if it is not of God it is not worth doing.  Amen.  I have an amazing relationship with Jesus...with Mary, the Mother of God, our Mother, and it continues to grow in my journey.  My husband John encouraged us to pray the rosary daily three years ago and I fought the repetitious prayer of the rosary but I now love it and can't imagine not saying a daily rosary.  I used to give my testimony to anyone who would listen but then I realized t was no more than a testimony.  Another sad abortion story.  A priest challenged me to develop my story as more than just a story but to emphasize what it was which brought me to this point.  It was truly His mercy and forgiveness.  That is what I have to share with people and in doing so bring them to Jesus...bring Jesus to others.  We are all called to do it. 

Mother's Day 2013

It has been quite some time since I have blogged so here goes my commitment of blogging at least once a week...I hear it is good for the soul.  It has been a tough year to say the least and for many reasons....so much has been taken away and yet so much has been gained.  My dear brother died last year....my friend, my confidante, the last of my 'immediate' family.  Family is so very important yet when you lose all of your family you learn, and it is apparent, that your friends become like your family and I have been blessed with so many wonderful and understanding friends.  Which brings me to Mother's Day.....a mixed emotion day for sure..... I can't help but think on this special day, what if....
What if I had my three children in my life, what if I had sought out some counseling before I made my decision, what if I had understood the values that were given me and lived a better life.  What  if I had understood, really understood, what I had done o many years go.   So many things I could have done differently but I didn't.  So tomorrow when I look around at all of the mothers I will feel that pain even moreso than I do on a daily basis.  I regret my decision period.

However, like all of us, God has a plan. He allows us to take our wrongs and to do good with them and to not just tell another sad story but to bring Him to others.  Let others know of aphis forgiving power.

Father's Day

On this Father's Day what has been on my mind is all the fathers who have lost their fatherhood to abortion. My husband is one of them. How many fathers suffer today because of their loss to abortion? How many men out there suffer as women do because of abortion? How many men don't even think of it because they do not feel they had any rights in keeping that child? Men are really lost in this issue and need to speak up so much more.....if they did I know abortion would not have the high numbers of occurrence it does today.

I pray for those men who suffer and for those who suffer and do not understand why. And...I thank my own father in heaven for choosing life.

Happy Father's Day.